My sweet boy,

I subbed for third grade today. I am tired, but I enjoyed third grade more than I thought I would. Overall, it wasn’t a bad day and I’m just worn down.

I went back and read my memories and it changed the rest of my night. A year ago today we got the results back from your autopsy, that day was and still is devastating. I wanted some sort of answer to what happened, I wanted to be able to lift some of the blame off myself because we were at the beach, I wanted to be more prepared for your siblings, but got nothing.

Even after hearing that horrible news, someone had found a way to go above and beyond and add even more to my plate that day.

You and your siblings are the only ones who matter to me. You are the most important people in my life and I’m going to continue to do whatever I can for all of you.

I love you so much, baby boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.