Isaiah Joseph,

Aunt Cait sent me a video from her wedding nine years ago. When she got married, you were about fifteen months old at the time. I remember I bought you a little suit with a clip on tie and I thought you looked absolutely adorable.

We drove up from Tennessee that morning so you guys were running on a rough evening sleep in the car. Add in not being able to nap properly, we were on borrowed time.

In the video, Aunt Cait was trying to get all her nieces and nephews together for a picture. At the time, that was just Ava, Vinny, Ellie, you, and Nick. In the short clip, you’re crying and running away because you don’t want to be in the picture.

If you were still here, I would show you the video and find it absolutely adorable. I’d show it to you while I hugged you and told you how cute you were. Without you here and with what is going on in life right now, I didn’t think it was cute. Instead, I just got really sad looking at you and started crying myself.

I don’t know what else to say to you right now, I just miss you like crazy. I need something. I love you more than anything, baby boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.