My Isaiah Joseph,

Hi, handsome. We had a graduation party to go to today. You would have loved the amount of food there and probably would have had five or so helpings. You also would have pointed out the splash pad and pool and talked about how awesome it looked. I thought it was awesome.

I couldn’t help but look at the teens there and think, “this would be Isaiah in eight years”. You know how they have those apps that say they show you what you’ll look like when you get older? I know they’re just for fun, but I thought about doing that a few times. However, I don’t necessarily want to see it when I will never know what you’d actually look like.

I’m going to go around to a few parks and recreation departments on Monday to see what their rules are regarding setting up food in the parks. I’ve decided I’m going to get cupcakes and hand them out at a park on your birthday. I was going to do pizza, too, but maybe just cupcakes. Maybe give everyone a ticket who comes and raffle off a Lego set?

I don’t know, it’s a lot to figure out. I’m trying to celebrate you with all these people and they didn’t even know you. I’m going to have to make a new picture board because we never found yours I made for your celebration of life. I think it got left at the church that day? If it was in the house, we would have seen it during or after the move.

I hope you know how much I love you. I think about you all the time and I know your siblings do too. You get talked about daily and random things about you get brought up all the time. I wish I could run my fingers through your hair.

Please watch over us. I love you more than anything, my sweet boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.