My baby boy,

Remember how I got your siblings the picture books of you and them for last Christmas? I reached out to the “daddy doll” people again to see if I can get an answer on what I need for an “Isaiah doll”. I feel like that would be a great Christmas gift from you this year. I want it to be a surprise, but I also want your siblings to be able to pick the picture and the fabric. I’m actually not even sure what pictures I will be able to use, so we will see. They also have an option to add a little voice recorder thing to it, I wonder if they would be able to take your voice off a video.

Seven years ago I posted this picture and captioned it with the quote “the days are long, but the years are short”. What I wouldn’t give to experience those seemingly long days again.

The rest of the week is pretty busy because I will be in third grade the next three days, Ellie has acro, and Thursday is National Child Grief Awareness Day. The Caring Place is having an event to “celebrate” your siblings on Thursday, so we are definitely going.

Ellie actually said that her school was recognizing the day and the kids were to try and wear blue on Thursday. I never even knew this day existed last year, but now we have a few things going on.

I’m having a difficult night with writing to you because I’m missing you so much. I’m lying in my bed and looking around at all the different pictures I have with your face smiling back at me. I want you back.

I love you more than anything, baby boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.