My baby boy,

There was a brief moment after I dropped Elijah off at school, where I felt this peace and knew that the universe was bigger than just this world and this life. It was very random, it was very quick, and I was just driving down the hill to a stop sign and looking at trees.

Aunt Cait met up with Aunt Robbie yesterday and Aunt Robbie told her about some of the signs she’s gotten. I think I need to make time to get together with her. I just don’t know if I’m ready and could handle it.

I’ve branched out rather slowly since losing you, as far as it goes with talking to people who were already in my life. I don’t know why, but it was much easier for me to tell random strangers what happened rather than stand and talk to someone I knew. I can’t make any of it make sense.

I love you more than anything, baby boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.