My sweetest Isaiah Joseph,

It’s official, I will have cupcakes and some Lego sets at South Park Children’s Playground on May 31st. I called the higher up parks and recreation people and they said I’m “good to go”. I put a little thing on the local mom’s page inviting anyone out to come and celebrate you. I added for them to wear their Minecraft, Super Mario, or red shirts. People who never even got the chance to meet you in this world will know who you are.

Before losing you, I had a hard time accepting things and help from anyone else. I didn’t want them to think I was ungrateful and I expected things. I also felt like I could never completely express my gratitude. After losing you, I got better at saying “yes”. We survived the first few weeks because of the meal train that was put in place. Dad and I were barely functioning enough to make meals each day. It’s still uncomfortable, but I’m at least better at telling people that.

I got an offer tonight to create a website for you. Do you want to know how I got that amazing opportunity? I got it because of you. I got it because people have come to know what an amazing human you were.

When she made the offer, I was so excited. Let’s be honest, I can’t create anything like that. However, I second guessed myself because I didn’t want to inconvenience someone. I called her and had an amazing conversation with her. I know what I want to do for you and I can’t do it alone. I need help from other people and if they’re willing and wanting to give it, I need to accept it. I am incredibly thankful for anything and everything that comes forward to help me spread information about you.

I love you more than anything, my sweet boy. Goodnight, sweet dreams, and watch over us when you get a chance.