My sweet boy,

My mind is so far gone right now that I was about to go to bed and I hadn’t even written to you yet. If that would have happened, I probably would have had an absolute breakdown.

I need some quality time with your siblings this weekend. Maybe we will drag the Nuggets into the living room and have a movie night and just all lay there together. It’s difficult to always make sure you take in everything you do have when part of your life is gone.

Elijah made a leprechaun trap for school today, it was the first one I’ve ever seen made for school. I remember you set a trap for the leprechaun the one time in Hawaii. I think that was the time where there was tape on the doorbell? Maybe that was the time you stretched jump ropes across the hallway? I’m not sure, but you tried to catch Santa, the Easter Bunny, and a leprechaun at some point.

Baby boy, I’m at a loss right now. I don’t know what to do. I need a visit or a sign or for you to just come back and tell me that you love me. I love you more than anything in the world, baby boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.