Hey you,

Hey you,

Baby, it’s going to be short today. It’s been a bad day. I just miss you so much.

Elijah got his haircut today. He started crying when he was there about missing you. He was also talking to you tonight at dinner. He pretended to have an eye staring contest, you won, and he asked you to play rock, paper, scissors. Thankfully he has therapy Tuesday.

I was talking to daddy about you and how I wished we at least had somewhat of a warning. I wish you were conscious again at some point after you collapsed. I wish I could have looked into your eyes and told you “I love you”. None of it is fair. I know life isn’t fair, but losing you is making it hard to just survive.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m tired of how it feels to miss you. I love you more than anything, my baby. Goodnight and sweet dreams.