Hi baby boy,
We had the Let Grace In Christmas get together tonight. It was so nice. We had great food, got to make a memorial ornament for you, made a memorial cupcake, and even got some glitter and henna tattoos. The group of people I’ve met through that organization are just amazing. It was wonderful to get to see a lot of them tonight. You’d think a Christmas party for families who have lost a child would be depressing, but I feel like my cup got a little more filled up tonight. There’s something about being able to laugh and be realistic with how much this first Christmas will suck. I’m just very thankful for all the people.
I meant to tell you yesterday, but I forgot. You know how we always get the set of four small gingerbread houses from Target? We got them and I glued them together the other day. Yesterday morning, after dropping Elijah off at Pre-K, Lucas looked around and asked where they went. It should not be a surprise, but I’m pretty sure it was Bella who ate all of them. We found the pieces of hot glue yesterday afternoon in the play room. Let’s be honest, Bella eats anything and everything. We had one instance one year in Missouri when Apollo stole part of our gingerbread train off the table, but he hid random pieces around the house. I went back to Target yesterday, but they didn’t have the four little houses anymore. Ellie and Lucas are going to decorate a donut shop, while Elijah and I will decorate Target. I was really hoping Elijah would choose the beach house, but the Target store was his choice.
Tomorrow is the big day. Please watch over me, I just want to finish. I cut out a picture of you and have it pinned to my bib. I want you with me any way I can. Miss Madison had your siblings go over yesterday to make me a sign for the finish line. I really appreciate her.
Okay, sweetie. I’m off to bed because I need to wake up at 1am to drive down to the city, find a parking spot, and get to the start line. I go off at 5am, so be on the lookout. I love you more than anything, my baby. Goodnight and sweet dreams.