Baby boy,

Tonight was one of the first moments where I said, “Isaiah could have helped me with this”, talking about your strength. Sometimes there are just things I cannot do and tonight I could not open the bottle of sparkling grape juice. We were going to look at Halloween lights and your siblings wanted to drink that while we drove around, but I could not get the bottle open. Everyone tried, but nobody was successful. Ellie ended up bringing it in the car and managed to wedge a spoon in the lid and get it open. I’m not positive, but I feel like you would have had the strength at this age to help me open it.

Driving around and looking at lights was different. We always walked around in Hawaii and just drove around post in Missouri. I was trying to follow this map of where certain houses were, but it was kind of a bust. Ellie was bored and made sure to announce it the last half of our drive. I missed you during it.

Tomorrow is my first day back in a classroom since being pregnant with you, but I’m just subbing. I used to cry every time I dropped Ellie off at daycare to go to work, but tomorrow I will be subbing right at the boys’ school. I’m only a little nervous, but maybe you could stop by and check up on me at some point. I will be in kindergarten all day, so you know there won’t be any dull moments.

I love you more than anything, my baby boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.