Happy Birthday, sweetie!

Ten years ago you came into this world fast and on your own terms. I’m actually thankful that your birthday is about over, now. It’s been a terribly emotional day and I’ve just wanted it to end so I could put it behind me.

We had donuts, went to the park, watched Hocus Pocus 2 while building your Lego set, had stuffed crust pizza, had some cake, and that’s about it. I didn’t want to do much of anything, so we didn’t. I’m sure the Pirate game would have been okay, but I stand by my decision to not go there.

I’m sorry I didn’t sing Happy Birthday to you tonight. It was too hard. Your siblings did, but I told them I wouldn’t be because I would just be crying the entire time. I also couldn’t find the long lighter so was only able to light your zero that was a sparkler and not the “one” too.

There were so many incredible disappointments followed by other ones. Then again, my current reality is a bit “disappointment” from what I always thought and hoped my reality would be.

I hope your kindness was instead spread around today so the amazing kindness that was my boy, Isaiah Joseph, was felt by so many. Goodnight, sweet dreams, and Happy Tenth Birthday, my baby.\