My baby boy,

I was exhausted after trick or treating yesterday. Not physically, just mentally and emotionally done.

Although it was the second Halloween without you, it was the first Halloween that daddy wasn’t here. I lost my future I had planned in my mind and you within a few months of each other. As we were trick or treating last night, it wasn’t just missing you. It was also looking around at all the families going together knowing that we have a different story now.

Rebuilding my future with the four of you was going to be a hard road, but I knew we would get it. Without you, I don’t have the confidence in the future that I did before.

Please come visit. Also, I hope you heard me this morning in your room, I told you something I want you to mention if I ever go and see a medium. It’s our secret.

I love you more than anything, baby boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.