My baby boy,

Hi, handsome. I met one of our neighbors today. Our yard is really big and they hadn’t cut the grass since sometime last summer. Pap let me borrow his electric weed eater and that’s how I was going to cut the grass since we don’t have a lawn mower. However, the battery on the weed eater only lasts a half hour so the whole process was very dragged out. After my neighbor saw me for the third time out there, he told me he could cut my grass for me tomorrow. I told him that I could handle it, I just didn’t have a mower. He then offered me his push mower, which I took.

I guess I’m still not completely comfortable saying “yes”, because realistically I should have told my neighbor “thank you, I really appreciate it” and let him cut it with his riding mower. He told me it would take him like five minutes, but I didn’t feel comfortable letting him do that. So an hour and a half later, I used an entire tank of gas in the lawnmower and didn’t even finish. That’s okay, I’m so thankful I got that done with a lawnmower. The electric weed eater was slowly draining my sanity.

I’m lying with Ellie right now and she wanted me to let you know that we just heard the only Amazon Story Time story that you like, Space Love.

We went to Aunt Sarah’s this morning for brunch. Your brothers are constantly confused about why she’s “Aunt Sarah” when she isn’t my sister. I told them that “Aunt” isn’t only a title held for blood relatives, it’s for anyone who cares about them and has been in their lives. Aunt Sarah has been there since the beginning. She visited twice in Tennessee, twice in Missouri, and we saw her every time we came back to Pennsylvania. Not to mention that she’s always just thinking of you guys. She gave us five bird seed packets today. Aunt Sarah gave us one for you, too. I love it, you’re automatically included.

You would love Gabriel. He’s apparently a dare devil and you could have taught him all of your knowledge of doing dangerous things. He likes to climb things and jump into his ball pit, sound familiar?

Your brothers were just talking about you tonight at bedtime. I’m not sure who it was, but someone at your Celebration of Life made a big impression on Elijah. I have no idea who it was and I’m not sure if his memory of what he looked like is completely accurate. I knew all the kids there, except for your classmates who came. According to Elijah, he had light brown and curly hair? I’m not sure who it was, but am thankful for them. It’s not surprising you picked such amazing friends.

I hope to see you in a dream soon, or hear that one of your siblings have had a dream of you. I miss you so much. I love you more than anything, baby. Goodnight and sweet dreams.