My baby boy,

I forgot to tell you. Yesterday morning I lost track of what time it was and looked at the clock to notice it was eight minutes later than it usually was when we left to go to Ellie’s bus stop. I took Ellie’s book bag and ran while she went to go get her cup and then catch up. The bus appeared as soon as we got to the stop. I felt “normal” in this moment. It’s nothing to brag about, but I’m not always on top of things and always running around at the last minute. I think I was only happy because Ellie didn’t miss the bus, if she would have missed it I probably would have said I failed.

Things happened today that wouldn’t surprise you at all. We went to Cal for a track and field reunion. I got to see and catch up with some people I haven’t seen in a while, we got to meet Rosalie, your siblings caused obvious chaos by running around and throwing cups of water on each other, and Lucas went around putting pickles in his Gatorade and drinking it. Ellie came over to tell me that Lucas made a group of college girls laugh and Elijah’s face lit up. It was actually pretty funny. Elijah heard that and decided that was the best possible thing he could be doing, too.

I took them down to campus after to walk around a little. We went into a few of the buildings, saw daddy’s old dorm building, and then stopped at the fountain to play. While playing, Lucas was throwing his croc into the center part because he wanted to see if the water would lift it up. In typical fashion, he lost his croc. He threw it in, it managed to fall through the grate, and it wasn’t to be seen again. Lucas has had a rough few months with crocs. First he lost Elijah’s in the sandbox and now his is gone into a fountain at Cal U.

We managed to make it home, only to discover a half hour later that Ellie forgot her phone by the fountain at Cal. We got to drive back over there and luckily her phone was still sitting there. Elijah says he never wants to go to Cal again and he managed to pull a muscle from all the walking today.

I wish you could have been there with us to add to all the chaos. We miss you every single day. I love you more than anything, baby. Goodnight and sweet dreams.