Baby boy,

I’m just sad today. There’s this heaviness on me that is just sitting there. I know there’s a lot on my mind and I’ve been busier than usual, but it’s creating this odd feeling of needing to have a complete breakdown cry, not being able to connect my thoughts together, and just being completely numb.

It’s like I have a million things to say to you, but I can’t think of any of them. My brain is like one of those scenes in the movies where someone is staring off and what they’re thinking about in their mind is moving at a ridiculous speed and you can’t even make out what’s going on.

I have been zooming in on my pictures I have of you on my phone and just staring at your face. I miss everything about you and wish I knew why you got taken away with no warning. I love you more than anything, baby boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.