Baby boy,

Today shifted into a day I didn’t expect. Work went well, Lucas got sent home from school early so we went to urgent care, and then your siblings and I sat in the dining room together once everyone was home from school like always.

My Valentine’s Day decorations are still up and I never put up St. Patrick’s Day decorations, so I made myself get out the bin of Easter decorations considering it’s only twenty days away.

Decorating for Easter just made me sad. Opening the bin and seeing the infamous duck costume with all the bunny ears is just a shot to the heart. I was already upset, so I didn’t think my next decision through.

I told you that I’ve been putting off doing our taxes because I didn’t want to see that your name wasn’t on there any more. I had to check the box last year that said you “passed away”, so I figured that this year your name wouldn’t be on there. I was wrong, your name was still on there and I needed to check the box for how long you lived with us during the year of 2025. What was I supposed to do? This made no sense to me, so I called H&R Block and sat on hold for thirty minutes while I tried to figure out the solution.

While I was waiting on the phone, I was wondering if they would tell me the only solution would be for me to “delete you” from our dependents. That’s ridiculous, I already did the job of putting in that you passed away, I don’t want to have to do anything else.

Once I finally was able to speak to someone, that someone connected me to another someone to make sure the situation was handled “delicately”. The “supervisor” I was connected to eventually told me that I would just have to go in and remove your name myself. I asked if they could just remove it for me so I didn’t have to “delete you”, but she said she couldn’t. I texted Miss Whitney and I will be giving her my login information so she can go in and update the information necessary.

I haven’t had a breakdown and ugly cried like that in a while. Part of me wants to write to H&R Block just because I feel like the account should automatically “archive” the name away after you have clicked that you had already passed away s previous year.

I love you more than anything, my baby boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.