Isaiah Joseph,

Life is getting hectic and I am trying to figure out how to handle it. I usually would say that I’m not handling it at all, but I’m handling it in some way because things are getting done.

I was on bus duty this morning at school and got hugs from kids who were coming off their buses. It seems small, but it makes me happy. I always wanted to feel like I was making a difference somehow. I know just subbing isn’t having this awesome impact on anything, but at least it’s enough that a few kids are excited when they see me.

I’ve been looking for full-time teaching positions the last few weeks since it’s the time where they’re going to start to get posted. I think ahead to how I can include you in my future classroom. I want to figure out how I can have things that directly remind me of you and help me feel like you’re with me each day. One thing I will definitely do when I get my own classroom, is send them home with bracelets at the end of the year with a note saying how “we are family”.

Baby boy, I hope you’re proud of what is going on here and you think we are doing an okay job given the circumstances. I hope you know that we all miss you each and every day.

Oh! I do want to tell you that I thought of you at a specific time today while I was subbing. I was in art class and they didn’t really have plans, so they were doing Art for Kids Hub. One kid did not want to do it and kept trying to sneak onto games on his Chromebook. I went over to talk to him to see if we could figure out something he would want to do that was art related and while I was talking to him he just kept typing “no no no no no no”. I smiled inside thinking of you doing that to me when you didn’t want to do your work. Don’t worry, he found something he wanted to do.

I love you more than anything, my bay boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.