Hi my baby,

Hi my baby,

I haven’t put up the Christmas lights outside yet. I don’t know if I will. I should, your siblings would want me to. However, it’s just not might be the year to do it this first year. If anything, maybe I can just put a few strings on the bushes so it’s something. I didn’t put any lights up for Halloween or our blow up cat and Ellie reminded me nearly single day. I did put up a light up spider I got at the thrift shop. He’s actually still out there on the big tree. I talked to Miss Brenda and I am thinking about putting a Santa hat on him and giving him a “bag for toys”.

Pap said he hadn’t put up the outside lights either. Without you, it’s just tough. Pap figured we would be back in Pittsburgh this Christmas and was planning on putting up a ton of lights for you guys. You always appreciated his lights and wanted to see them on FaceTime.

Your time with me was cut way too short, baby boy. I love and miss you every second of every day. I was talking to you a few nights ago before I went to bed, I hope you heard me. I hope you understand.