Hi my baby,

Hi my baby,

I’m going to try and keep it a little shorter today, because I want to share two notes from Ellie with you. I love that she randomly writes to you, the first one she wrote was Friday before we left for the retreat and then one randomly this afternoon.

In honor of you tonight, we had some sparkling apple cider and watched your two horrible kids picture shows we bought on Amazon prime. The first one was the ten different drinks and they ask for it, grab it, and say thank you. Ridiculous. The second one was where all the fruits come out and they tell you which one to find. Sadly, I was horrible at the fruit one. Some of the fruits did not look like the actual fruit, so I’m not saying it was all me, but I didn’t find one. I got super excited when they said “lychee” though! Before we moved to Hawaii, I had never even heard of lychee. Now I know! I get it, you’re probably not as excited about that as me. I was extremely disappointed that they only did half the fruits. Why put so many out there at the beginning if you’re not even going to do all of them? There wasn’t only a few left, there was like fifteen. Anyway, after that we watched Charlie Brown and the Great Pumpkin.

I noticed that when I put on the kid’s picture show, I was able to smile thinking about how much you used to love those. I teared up a little bit, but I was able to smile through the tears tonight. I miss you so much, but I didn’t break down and bawl my eyes out. I was able to cry a little, but happily think of the great times with you. Maybe that’s progress? It’s a day by day thing, tomorrow may suck, but I will take the little win for today.

That’s all I’m going to say for tonight. I don’t want to say too much with Ellie’s notes, too. I love you more than anything, my baby. Goodnight and sweet dreams.

Ellie’s Notes: (please note that we are having an issue with someone in her class, no bullying necessary, but if you could tell Ellie she needs to let go of people who don’t “keep her candle lit”, it’ll help. She doesn’t listen to me.)

Hi Isaiah
Hi I miss you so much and remember the game we played. Horsey when I would take you to any place you want. Oh yeah also remember that time we played the you pulled my pants down and you said ew your butt I miss you. I love you so much and I wish you were still here with the family but give me a way to bully Kelcy . She is a jerk remember you told me not to go to her party cause how rude she was I wish I could’ve just listened to you. But fifth grade is going so well and my teacher is the best her name is Mrs Poindexter but anyway how are you doing Isaiah well. I’m going to go and I’m doing ok but not I’m so excited for the cabin tonight you should come to

Love your best sister Elliana I love you Isaiah

Elliana & Isaiah best friends and siblings always and forever

Hi Isaiah

I miss you so much I wish you were here because I want my hugs and soft soft  kisses you were the best . I also missed you trying to protect me from Kelcy I wish I should’ve just listened well visit me tonight I love you and no matter how we thought we were always still best friends and best siblings. Well I’m going to do soccer for you to remember you I love you and I will be mean and laugh when people are mean.

It’s just hard we can’t play our games anymore like horse it’s just hard I mean like this is crap that your not here. Halloween is coming up so this is going to be so had but come with us I will share my candy well love you Isaiah I know I never said it that much but I wish I did. And I also wish I gave you more hugs and kisses but I love you bye