Hi sweetie,

This might sound crazy, but were you in my room last night. Maybe it was a dream? I remember waking up, looked over and saw a figure shaped like you (the fluffy hair really stood out). I wasn’t at all scared, I remember thinking “that’s Isaiah” and went back to sleep. Or I was already asleep and dreamed about me sleeping, waking up, seeing you, and going back to bed. I don’t know, I was really confused this morning when I woke up. I’m going to just stick with you came to check on me, that makes me happy.

We went to see Despicable Me 4 again today. I didn’t go last time, so it was my first time seeing it. You definitely would have loved. I had you with me at the movies with my necklace and brought your blanket that nurse Kristin gave you in the hospital. I definitely think it would have been your favorite Despicable Me.

I decided to sign myself up for a marathon in December. I thought 26.2 miles isn’t nearly as difficult as what life has thrown at me this last year. I will run it for you. I’ll make a shirt with your name on it and maybe some Minecraft/lego characters.

Your siblings are really missing you. Ellie wrote you a letter today and left it on your bed. Her and I also talked in my room after. She’s holding a lot of her feelings in, but she misses you terribly. She tries her best to stay busy so she doesn’t have to think about anything. However, all her friends currently are away or have family visiting so she has been home a lot more. She’s stuck dealing with everything. It’s okay, she needs to try and process everything.

I love and miss you terribly. Ellie and I were talking about how we wish we could just come up and visit you for a day. We just all come see you together. We’d do all your favorite things, I’d give you a million hugs and kisses, and I’d tell you a trillion times how much I love you. I’m so tired my baby boy, missing you is exhausting. My brain no longer functions correctly. It’s like I try and focus really hard on something, can do it for like a half hour, then just everything shuts down. Please keep watching over us. I love you so much and cannot wait for the day that we meet again.