Baby boy,

I don’t have much to say tonight. We had Kids Hurt Too tonight and it’s just nice to sit around with people and laugh about the dysfunctional parts of your life. We’ve been going twice a month since July and I’m going to soak up my last few times and the people that are there.

I want you to know that the four of you are my greatest accomplishment. I used to think it was odd that I didn’t have these huge professional goals, but I now know why. I want to help add some good into the world. Creating you and your siblings and helping to guide you into becoming great humans has added some good into the world. You four are my reason and unfortunately, it look losing you to realize having that reason was “okay”.

I love you more than anything, my sweet boy. Please keep an extra eye on us the next few weeks. I’m very stressed, but I know it’ll be worth it in the end. Goodnight and sweet dreams, baby.