Isaiah Joseph,

You know how I’ve told you that things happen and I second guess what they are? It happened again last night, but I feel like I’m done denying it. You were in my dream last night. I don’t remember any part of the dream except when I hugged you. I hugged you and put my chin right on your head. I didn’t have to bend down at all. It’s like you know I’ve been wondering how tall you’d be now and you showed me.

I told your siblings all about my dream. Lucas said he had a dream about you last night, too. The dream was you guys all playing the game in the pool where Lucas went on your back and Elijah went on Ellie’s and you raced.

I know I still have to figure out how to keep your legacy alive. I want to openly discuss the amazing and intelligent child you were and not the horrific thing that happened to you. I want to make a positive change in the world in your name.

I could never have imagined this life without one of my children. When you came so quickly into the world on July 20th, I couldn’t fathom knowing you’d be taken away from me even faster.

Isaiah Joseph, you are forever my baby boy and forever an amazing, kind, smart, helpful, funny, protective brother. We all love you more than anything, sweetie. Goodnight and sweet dreams.