Isaiah Joseph,

Today was a rough day, so this is going to be short. I’m not sure if you were at Elijah’s last soccer game today, but he managed to get his first goal ever in a game. He’s gotten so much more confident with himself this season and I’m so proud of him.

I finally made your bed today and put the sheet on your bed that I bought. I’ve been holding out because I’ve been waiting to find the black sheet that you slept on, but I haven’t seen it since we moved. It’s been eight months, I haven’t seen no idea where it is, so I put on the other black sheet that I got. Once I started to set all your stuffed animals up around the bed, the day started to go downhill. I was picking up and looking at all these stuffed animals and remembering the memories that came along with them. As I was setting them on your bed, I thought “this is forever how Isaiah is going to be remembered, just like this”.

I wanted to “check-out” from the day and just be done. These are the days I feel as though I’m not showing up enough for your siblings, but I have nothing.

I love you more than anything, baby boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.