Isaiah Joseph,

Today was another great day, my mouth hurt so much from smiling.

We got invited out with the Murray Family to go to lunch. I’ve always been amazed by the Murray Family and actually sent Mr. And Mrs. Murray a message years ago asking how they raised the family they did. I know that no family is ever perfect, but the Murray Family always seemed to come together as a family for all kinds of events. That’s what I wanted with all four of you when you grew up.

I didn’t have a lot of hope that you would all stick around the same place, considering you were military kids who had nowhere to call “home” to begin with. I worried about everyone spreading out and then just never all coming back together.

Today we got invited to be part of that family and it did so much for me. Before losing you, I didn’t let people in as much. I did a lot on my own, figuring that I didn’t want to bother anyone else. Since losing you, I don’t push the people away that try to come in, as much.

We had a wonderful time and my cup got “filled” even more. Not only did I get to catch up with an old friend, but I got to see just how much life has changed. I got to see how loved and cared about my family is, even if we aren’t blood.

You would have loved being there today. I hope you stopped by to check it out. There was a baby there that reminded me a lot of you when you were an infant, he had these big cheeks and rolls for days.

I love you more than anything, baby boy. Thank you for making sure I’m still taken care of, even though you aren’t here. Goodnight and sweet dreams.