My baby boy,

I’m learning the things I need to do more of throughout this journey. I didn’t think we were going to do much today, but we got some of the house cleaned up. I decided that since Beenie didn’t work today, I shouldn’t worry about the time and I should see if we could still go over. We ended up going over and I feel like it was exactly what I needed.

We ended up ordering pizza and both your brothers made comments about how much pizza you would have eaten had you been there. I love how you so casually come up for some of the most random things. You’d be proud of Elijah, I feel like he would have rivaled you in pieces of pizza eaten today.

Everyone played outside, they played inside, and I just got to sit and talk to Beenie. We also watched the chaos unfold that was your brothers trying to ride hoverboards. They got told that if you tell the hoverboard what to do, it listens. I’ve explained to them quite a few times today that it doesn’t actually work that way, but nobody listens to me. Elijah managed to get himself stuck spinning around really fast as he yelled, “stop!” over and over again. Luckily the hoverboard died and he just fell off.

Spending time today with Beenie and her kids filled my cup. It was a great relief after all the emotions of the last few days. Please keep watching over us. I love you more than anything, baby boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.