Isaiah Joseph,

I was on Pinterest today looking for school lunch options your siblings would actually eat and I suddenly got so upset. On my main page there was a pin for a book of Christmas ornaments you could make. You would have really enjoyed that in your younger years, although probably not as much later on. You would have loved putting them together, but would you have kept them together so we could actually hang them on the tree? I’m thankful we have that snowman one you randomly made a few years ago and I glued it together last Christmas.

Lucas has suddenly become obsessed with the Titanic and another ship from World War I, I think. I have no idea where this love came from, but he got books from the library, built a replica on Minecraft, built replicas out of Legos and then tested them in water, and tonight I went ahead in the movie, Titanic, to when it hit the iceberg. He did learn something, because before he thought it just hit the iceberg and sunk. He was blown away that it wasn’t going down right away.

Therapy was a lot and I’m absolutely exhausted. I need to make a change. I love you more than anything, my baby. Goodnight and sweet dreams.