Merry Christmas, baby boy,

I made it through the day. I kind of feel guilty because we did absolutely nothing today. Other than opening gifts this morning, nothing else made today any different than any other day.

One thing I really did enjoy was getting to see your siblings open up the gifts they received from the Caring Place. I had no idea what anything was, so I was genuinely surprised each time they showed me something. I was never fully aware of how many Titanic themed things were made. Lucas got two shirts, a blanket, a light, some block models, and I got him a little Titanic plush. The people who picked out the gifts for your siblings put so much love, care, and effort into what they were getting them, I am forever grateful for them.

I received a message today on your Isaiah’s Light facebook page. I have only put about a month and a half of my letters on there so far, but I wanted to put it in the cards I gave out so people could see you. I know, I’m way behind on everything in life, but I am trying.

A mom messaged me from the mall yesterday. I didn’t actually talk to her, I just talked to her husband and gave her sons candy. Her one son actually ran up and gave me a hug as we were walking away and I remember telling him how awesome I thought his Minecraft Christmas sweater was.

Someone saw you, baby. Someone is getting to know you. From me giving out some of your candy, my sweet boy’s name is getting a little bit of a further reach out into the world. That’s all I want from all of this, I just want to make sure people know who you are and that you are always remembered.

I didn’t feel like you were around at all today, but that’s how I always feel. I hope I just felt this way and you were actually with us a few times today. I love you more than anything, sweetie. Goodnight and sweet dreams.