My baby boy,

Seven more days and we leave this beautiful island. I am starting to get a little more excited and less anxious. This is a huge leap for us, but we will figure it out together.

There was a bag sale today at the thrift shop so I stocked up a little more on winter clothes for everyone. I want Lucas to have a few other options that aren’t “comfy clothes” aka dry fit that you’d only wear.

I miss you so much and it’s so odd how the sudden tears come out of nowhere. I hope you’re with us on this trip and when we get to our new home. I told you that you’ll have a room and I’m going to put Carson’s carpet in there that Miss Courtney gave us. The original plan last year was to have it in your room when we moved so you could be reminded of Carson each time you were in your room. It’s a really cozy rug, so that’s even better.

I’m going to go to our beach tomorrow where we went snorkeling. Maybe you could come by and give me a sign. Maybe a turtle or monk seal on the sand? I’m just going to breathe in the salt air and take in everything this beautiful place has to offer.

I know you’re helping ground me right now. Please continue. I love you more than anything, my sweet boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.