My baby boy,

Our time is getting shorter and shorter. We thought we were going to go to the beach today, but your siblings weren’t up for it. I’m going to probably go the next few days myself.

We have five more sleeps in this house. I got your room completely painted back today. Months ago I asked one or two people if they could tackle that job with me. I couldn’t even begin to think about having to paint your room back. However, with the changes within the last few months in your room I think I was able to separate you from your room. As odd as that is, I’m thankful for it.

The next few days is going to be hectic and stressful, but I want to be able to slow down enough to enjoy it. We have our final Kids Hurt Too on Thursday and then I have to take the dogs to the vet on Friday to get their health certificates to fly. You know how Apollo always got paranoid and anxious when we started to pack things, he’s doing that now. Once the household goods got picked up, he knew something was going on.

I just want to hear your voice, so I think I am going to listen to some videos of you. Give me strength, baby, this life can be a lot take in. I love you more than anything, baby. Goodnight and sweet dreams.