My baby boy,

Hi, sweetie. I bought a lot of plants today to have in the house. I’m cheap, so we went to Lowe’s and I checked out their clearance shelf. There was actually a lot on there and they looked good. I know what you’re thinking, “mom, you suck at keeping plants alive”. I’m not even going to deny it, I’m not the best with plants. However, I wanted them for our house so I’m going to try and do better with these ones. I already changed out the soil and repotted all of them. I feel like that’s a huge step forward. I bought a lot of tropical plants because they made me think of Hawaii.

Elijah starts his new school tomorrow. He’s very excited, but nervous. I think he will do great. He’s extremely personable so I’m guessing he should have no problem making friends. While we were at the park today, he was walking past this random man and just started waving. Maybe you could check in on him.

We had our first thunderstorm today. I missed them so much. I will say that we were driving through the worst of it and that was a little much. At one point it started hailing and the power line next to us at the light was shooting sparks onto the ground. As you could imagine, Lucas lost his mind. Hopefully as time goes on he will see that the storms won’t result in huge tornadoes and we’ve just got to ride it out.

Tomorrow is St. Patrick’s Day. I understand we are Irish, but we never do anything on the day. The only thing we’ve ever done and I’ve regretted each year is hiding all the fake gold around the house for you guys to find. I don’t regret doing it because it’s hard or anything, but I regret it because I am never prepared enough to have the coins ready. I thought I would have it together, but I don’t. Instead, I’m going to have to go through rooms trying to find random coins from past years. Maybe I will hide them harder so they think that’s why they can’t find many. Then tomorrow I will run out to get more. I know, it’s all a huge lie.

I haven’t dreamt about you in a while. I have therapy tomorrow so I’m sure I’ll figure out new things tomorrow that I need to address. I just don’t want to feel so lost anymore. I love you more than anything, baby. Goodnight and sweet dreams.