My baby boy,

I had therapy today. I told her how I want to get your website working so I can give out the Legos that we have. It’s very important to me that people see you and can get to know you. We did the gift cards at the hospital that I forgot about, but I feel disconnected from you. My way that I feel connected to you is by doing things for other people in your name. The celebration of you that we had at the park was about four and a half months ago.

It’s not just that I feel like I should be doing more, but I want to be doing more. In that book I’m reading, it says that sometimes spirits will help guide people towards certain people or situations. I’m not hinting that I would appreciate something like that, but I also wouldn’t say no to the help.

I know more people than I know think about you just because of these letters. I still have a huge fear, though, that you’ll be forgotten about and I need to do everything in my power to stop that.

I need a lot right now, baby. I need strength, patience, motivation, ideas, support, and my sanity. I need even more than that, but those things would be a nice start.

Please just let me know you’re still with me. I feel like that would help give me everything I need. I love you more than anything, baby. Goodnight and sweet dreams.