Hi baby,
I finally had it in me to call the off-duty firefighter who started CPR on you within like ten seconds of me getting you out of the water. I wanted to thank him that day before we left the beach, but there was too much going on. We called around that first day to try and find his name, but our name was eventually given to him and he called us. Daddy gave him a call back that first night, but that was the last he heard. I couldn’t bring myself to call him all this time, it was just too painful. I was so grateful for him, but was dealing with the horrible aftermath of it. Explaining to him on the phone today was rough for both of us. However, I really needed him to know how amazingly blessed we were that day to have him. He was like a superhero who came out of nowhere to try and rescue you. I told him that he was most likely the reason that we were able to donate your organs. If he wouldn’t have been there, I don’t think we would have had the few days with you that we did. I asked if we could meet up with him at some point. I want daddy to get a chance to meet him, I want your siblings to really see the man who tried to save you, and I just don’t think I can show how thankful I am for him.
Your Celebration of Life is on Saturday. I’ve got Minecraft and Lego cupcakes and decorations, pizza (because obviously), bounce houses, shave ice, popcorn, and all the people here in Hawaii that you have made an impact on. I’m hoping you can look down on us during it and see everyone coming together for you. You deserve so much.
I’m worried about just forgetting memories with you. I’m stressing that I will need to watch videos or look at pictures in order to recall anything. I was told this is normal, but it’s a horrible feeling. I have just been looking back on videos and pictures of you and just crying. I look forward to the day when there is more smiling during the videos than crying. Although I think that’s years and years away.
You were always so creative and imaginative. You also were always looking out for your siblings and helping them out. Remember how you guys would clean to the Funky Beat song? You should know that I went back and watched the video I took of you guys and you’re the only one cleaning as you ran back in forth in the playroom! If I could show you that video now, ooh, you’d let your siblings know how you were the only one doing anything. You’d probably then proceed to tell them that you are now exempt from cleaning for the rest of your life.
I love and miss you so much. I’m thankful for homeschooling you and even the lockdown. I got so much extra time with you that a lot of parents wouldn’t get in eight years. You are a phenomenal son and will be in my heart forever.