Baby boy,

The first news of the day is that H&R Block called me. They had emailed me and reached out on social media to help “fix the problem”, but it wasn’t what I was asking for.

When I talked to the customer service representative who called me today, he wanted to do the same exact thing. He wanted to walk me through how I needed to delete you from the account on the taxes. I ended up in tears telling him that wasn’t my issue and that I wanted to see if they could change things for future people. I explained to him how I know it seems like such a small thing, but it was actually a very difficult thing for me. He took down my concerns and passed them on to development, saying he couldn’t promise any actual changes, but he’d let me know. I got the attached email about a half hour later, so we will see if something comes of it.

We had an event today with the Children’s Hospital bereaved sibling group. It was a rope course and I’ve been excited about it since we got the invitation for it about two months ago. Your brothers loved it and really enjoyed themselves. Ellie wasn’t feeling well and just didn’t “vibe” with the activity. I got overly excited that I was allowed to do it and did the high ropes course.

I’ve never done one and didn’t know when the opportunity would present itself again, so I took advantage of it. I’m not a fan of heights, but I went in the back so my speed, or lack there of, didn’t hold anyone back. I made it through all the obstacles and really enjoyed myself! I thought you’d be proud of me. I know if you were there, you would have gone up and tried the course with me.

I think I am going back and starting your site from scratch somewhere else. Apparently there’s an easier platform for people who have no clue what they’re doing and all my resources have been dead ends. I had even reached out to businesses to pay them to build it, but nobody got back. It’s what, almost a year in the making? I’m trying, baby boy.

Thanks for being with me today and giving me the strength to suck it up and do the ropes course. I love you more than anything in the world, baby boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.