My sweet boy,

This house is currently falling apart, both literally and figuratively. The downstairs flooded again last night and Lucas is so overtired that he’s crying like crazy. I used to think it was just military housing that was horrible, but I feel like very few people who rent their house out ever take care of it or it’s problems. This house has some real issues, but it’s what we have for now.

I had a dream the other night that we were visiting you at the Valley of the Temples cemetery. I brought you a turtle decoration, you were buried inside a building, and it was just odd.

I could have never buried you in Hawaii. We don’t have a place to call “home” for good, so it wouldn’t even thought about it. I needed you coming with us.

Baby I’m falling asleep again while doing this, I’m sorry, it’s just been a week with working and then everyone in the family is now sick.

I love you more than anything, baby boy. Goodnight and sweet dreams.