Hi sweetie,

Remember when we went to go see the blue moon? I drove around to a few different spots to see it, you guys were somewhat interested, but I think you liked just driving around and running around at night better. I took you to the skate park after and you guys did your usual sliding down the skateboard ramps. You’ve done that since the first time we moved here. You also did it at the skatepark in Missouri. When we went up to the Porter skatepark the first time you guys just ran around and played with that rocket launcher thing that Elijah got for his birthday.

You guys loved being out at night. How many times did I make you guys walk around the neighborhoods with me to see Halloween and Christmas lights? We did get to listen to Halloween and Christmas music though. Half the time you were the one who ended up in the jogging stroller because you didn’t want to walk anymore. Just like you at the stores when you wanted to ride in the cart because you were “so tired”. You and your 4’10” self took up the entire basket and made things a lot more difficult to push.

According to this book I’m reading, which I still don’t know if I even believe, a lot of souls who come and pass away as children are more developed. I’d like to think you were. You were walking and talking before anyone else, you were so smart, and the amount of love and empathy you had for people and animals was amazing. That would make me wonder what you would have been here to learn. You just took charge and did everything your way. It wasn’t always the safest, the smartest, the easiest, or the most logical way, but you didn’t care. It seemed like you already knew who you were. You already knew what you wanted, what you believed, and what you could do. I’m not going to lie, I’m pretty jealous of all that. I just watched you in awe, and with my eyes half closed because half the time I thought you were going to break something.

I think the people with the dog house Halloween decoration are still here this year. I always look at that house and think about how scared you all were both years. However, the first year was more scared/scared and the second year was more excited/scared. I miss how heavy footed you walked. To tell you the truth, Elijah seems to follow in those footsteps, especially at night. I would give anything to just see your face light up because you were excited just one more time. You are an incredible son and I’ve learned so much from you. You still amaze me. I love you so much, my baby. Goodnight and sweet dreams.